Had my first chemo five days ago and hoping I don’t fall at the first hurdle as I am finding it hard to not be my jolly self at the moment. Mainly my legs don’t seem to be working as before and have got out my stick as a support. Personally I don’t cover up the fact I feel lousy although do feel guilty for making others perhaps feel miserable too so will try harder to smile more. My family and the staff are wonderful and make you feel loved. i get a lot of comfort from looking at my decal in the bedroom which reads, Pray, Hope and Don’t Worry! There is always a silver lining somewhere to be grateful for and mine was being able to park up free for my appointments of over 4 hours each time at the hospital. Hopefully there will be many more. Take one day at a time ......
