On August 20 my dad stopped taking in food. On August 21 the home care nurse said we should come home to say our goodbyes as he is the stages of dying. We did get home and I said what goodbye I could and he is still with us as of August 24. His breathing is very erratic at times and he seems to be sleeping 95% of the time. He can still squeeze our hands. He sure doesn't look like himself anymore, so thin and pale. It was so hard going back home, when I left on the 21st I thought I was going to be planning a funeral but ..... he is hanging on and that is hard on all of us to see him suffering and my mom suffering too because she isn't ready to let him go. So now I am at home, 8 hours away by car, waiting for yet another phone call. Is it wrong to wish he doesn't suffer too long?
