Hiya well i hope you all had a lovely xmas and great new year :-)
I had a wonderfull time with the kids, only to return home and find my boiler had leaked through to my living room... what a lovely treat for me!! I threw my landlord the keys to my house and stormed out crying and refused to return until the leak and the ceiling was fixed, i cant wait to move now!!!
I had chemo again on thrusday, really struggled with the cold cap again and i cant wait until its over now. They have put me on new anti sickness drugs and i have to say they are fantastic i had no nausea at all this time round :-) One more round of epirubicin and then im onto cmf, which ive heard is complexed??
More moaning...... im sure my friends are ashamed to be seen with me!! Im getting so angry with them, when i got diagnosed they was constantly saying how they would be here to help out, or even just pop round for a cuppa.... suprise suprise none of them have!! I get a txt now and then saying that if i need anything then just to pick up the phone, do they not think i feel a burdan enough without me ringing them up asking them just to sit with me a while because i feel crap or down!!! Im sick of them arranging nights out with me then at the last minuite they cancel saying they have a sore throat or some poor excuse, only for me to find out that they actually went out without me!!!!
I really wouldnt wish this on anybody but i sooooo wanna scream to them to just put themselves in my shoes if only for a day and to realise just how lonely this journey is sometimes!!!
Well knickers to them all, i will soon be fighting fit and bk out partying and they sure as hell wont be getting invited!!
Take care all, thats my ranting over for today :-p
Love, Emma xxx :-)
