Typical isn't it. I really wanted to chat tonight, and I can't get into the chatroom. At last - at very long last - I'm starting chemo tomorrow [carboplatin and taxol], and though I know I have to do this, and really do want to get started, I am scared silly at the moment. I'm sure once I've had my first cycle and know what to expect, things will be better but at the moment I just want a hug. All kinds of stupid things keep going through my mind - such as knowing that this time tomorrow my hair's fate will be sealed! And I can't remember whether I'm allowed to have any breakfast before going to the clinic. I'm just so frustrated that I can't get into the chatroom and have some real time conversation with people who understand exactly what I'm feeling and who would know exactly the right thing to say to help me come to terms with this. For the first time since my diagnosis I just want to sit down and howl. Hey ho, nothing I can do about it now so I might as well just go to bed. Sorry to be such a moaning Minnie. I promise I'll do better tomorrow. Love to you all xxxx
FormerMember
Hi Kate, Just want to say im thinking of you, you will be alright, there will be good and bad days, but you just have to keep thinking that soon you will be able to say its all gone and start living again. I had problems coming to terms with loosing my hair, i think that was the worse part, but the girls on this site helped me by telling me that when it starts to fall out, cut it all off, then you are in control and not the cancer, it works i felt much better about it. Also the wigs are fab and also some very pretty scarfs. Any other side effects you have there is always something that will help. I found crystalised ginger was great for the sick feeling. Do what your body tells you, get plenty of rest and when up to it get fresh air. You will get through it, as you know i have just finished treatment, i never thought that day would come, but what a great feeling it is when you walk out of hos for last time. I am sending you many hugs and my very best wishes. YOU WILL BE OK AND BEAT IT.Will be here for you any time you need a hug love carol2xxxxxxxxx
