So here goes nothing...
On November 26th 2013, my Mom and Step Dads Wedding Anniversary and also the Anniversary of my Great Nans death (She passed before I was born), my mom was dealt the devastating blow that she had Cancer.
We were told the primary Cancer was Lung, but that it had spread to the Lymph Node and they were querying other areas.
Seven months later, we are still not really sure. They are unsure if it is in my moms adrenal gland, which would make her incurable. We are waiting for a PET Scan. The Scan was supposed to be yesterday, however last week I took my Mom to Centerparcs for the week and on Thursday I had to get an ambulance too her as she had become extremely poorly quite quickly. In the late hours of Thursday/Early hours of Friday I had a phone call to say my Mom had detioriated and this meant she needed to be moved to an intensive care bed. I went to see her Friday, and she just said to me that she was dying now. And that she wasn't getting better this time. We've been through so many hospital trips, and have really struggled with the effects of chemo that they have made the decision that mom is no longer suitable for Chemo.
This past week has literally probably been the hardest week of my life, but in some ways (I apologise if this upsets anyone) when I was told I could lose her, I was relieved because she wouldn't be in pain anymore. Obviously I never want to lose her, but I don't want her to suffer either.
This is just going to be my blog to get stuff off my chest, off my head, out of my mouth. And I deeply apologise if anything in my blogs upsets anyone, however this is my place to be just completely honest, and blunt I guess.
