whats wrong with me...apart from the obvious!

I just dont know whats wrong with me just now,i should be full of the joys that the ops over and im ok and that i know what to expect for the next kidney but i just feel lank,my hairs lank,i go about in joggies all day,im not sleeping well at all and when i do sleep im having the most afwul dreams where im actually attacking my mum and sister,i dont want to be alone then i do,i am sore and know i have a skin infection which is being treated with anti b's,ive been given sleeping pills but they dont even seem to be helping,my weights up to what it was before i lost some (if that makes sense) and the kids are behaving like nothings ever happened.I have for about a year suffered anxiety attacks for unknown reasons(eh!!),there is no apparent pattern to them but they leave me feeling even more anxious and upset, ive only told a handful of people about them,and have had to do some mad running about at times to hide from people when i feel one coming on. I told my mum tonight at dinner time that i had one today just after my Bf had gone out and im sure she thought i meant i had one as i was alone,i didnt i was just pointing out the time when i had one.I had one as i went for a nap this afternoon and im sure it was because i was worried about having bad dreams while i was asleep,silly hu.I know i should ask for some help but over the years ive had so many health issuses i cant face getting my head looked in to as well! Has any one elses mental health become a problem after health issuses,im sure i cant be the only one. Leigh xx