God ive had the 19th of August highlighted in the calander since the first day of the summer holidays and now that its here i actually feel sad,i was diagnosed two weeks into the summer and i think its the kids that have kept me sane in a funny kind of way and today the house is going to be quiet.I refuse to clean all day so looks like it might be a walk with the dogs,a game or two of scrabble on facebook (anyone fancy it??) and i might prepare something nice for dinner. My Bf is going out to meet his old boss so he wont be here either and ill need to do something to fill my time till i phone for my MRI results at 1pm,god ill be alone too,maybe give me time to mull over what they say good or bad.
I phoned my old renal social worker and she is coming out for coffee on Friday just to have a chat and see if there is any help she can offer,and my mum and dad very kindly gave us some money to let us go to a wedding on Sat,not that i feel like it one little bit,think we will take the car and just show face,might enjoy it when we are there and if the buffets good thats a bonus!
There are so many people on this site that i have grown used to reading there amazing stories and think of them often throughout the day,and when im feeling blue i realise how lucky i am, and somewhere someone is always worse of than me.
Leigh xx
