God ive had the 19th of August highlighted in the calander since the first day of the summer holidays and now that its here i actually feel sad,i was diagnosed two weeks into the summer and i think its the kids that have kept me sane in a funny kind of way and today the house is going to be quiet.I refuse to clean all day so looks like it might be a walk with the dogs,a game or two of scrabble on facebook (anyone fancy it??) and i might prepare something nice for dinner. My Bf is going out to meet his old boss so he wont be here either and ill need to do something to fill my time till i phone for my MRI results at 1pm,god ill be alone too,maybe give me time to mull over what they say good or bad.
I phoned my old renal social worker and she is coming out for coffee on Friday just to have a chat and see if there is any help she can offer,and my mum and dad very kindly gave us some money to let us go to a wedding on Sat,not that i feel like it one little bit,think we will take the car and just show face,might enjoy it when we are there and if the buffets good thats a bonus!
There are so many people on this site that i have grown used to reading there amazing stories and think of them often throughout the day,and when im feeling blue i realise how lucky i am, and somewhere someone is always worse of than me.
Leigh xx
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Leigh I will gladly play you at scrabble on FB, I am not that good though LOL Hey add me anyway - I'll PM you a link to me - if you wanna no pressure.
Love your take on the wedding, if the buffets good its a bonus ;) my daughter loves that show "four weddings"......I pretend I don't like those kind of programmes but secretly admit its quite funny how awful all the women get LOL
I'll be thinking of you today at lunchtime, positive vibes lassie, positive vibes.
Thinking of you today, what you said in your last sentence is how i get by most of the time, there are loads of people worse off than us arnt there? i know this philosophy doesnt always help but when i tend to get weepy and down i think of the poor souls out there, the fact we have loving family and friends too helps enormously. Bless your parents giving you a treat it reminded me of mine too, my parents live away in York and when they come up my dad always gives me a bit of money for my "contingency" plans as he puts it LOL How sweet is that, i say "god Dad im a right charity case" im a single parent dont get paid whilst on the sick only good old SSP trying to find out what benefits i am entitled to, just another worry wen you are trying to concentrate on your health?
Anyway im going into hospital today for my PEG fitted and i feel more scared about this than the treatment starting next week! Think its cos they cant fully put me out and its only sedation and they do it all via the mouth and down the stomach that way, another sore throat after that,, god my poor throat, wanted a rest from throat problems till i start getting my treatment cos thats gonna be really bad! Oh well sorry for moaning but its good to moan sometimes isnt it?
