The last update was just before my ct scan and thankfully it was all clear,but i have been told i will be checken ever 6 months and the other kidney has to come out sometime in the future,preferably before there are any problems with it,my kidney transplant is ticking over nicely the only downside for me was that i was the heaviest ive been on 7 years so im trying to get my ass in gear and get fit and loose a little weight. Kids are good,Daniel still working away in the pizza kitchen and loves it,back with his g/f and there happy,Katie is doing well studying for her exams and Logan is happy on his bike and drawing away in the evenings,Billy and i have been goign on short cycles most days and trying to socialise at the weekend,which ended up with a small mishap for me outside a club when i was sick down myself,i must think im a teenager again! The panic attacks are still present and ive had my citalopram increased as i had a real whopper of an attack in asda where i couldnt breath and nearly passed out in an isle-my mother asked if anyone came to help me and when i said no (i was with billy) she said maybe they were scared and thought you were giving birth-charming.
My sad blip is my dad has decided he wants nothing more to do with me-i have never been the daughter he wanted-i dont have a high flying career but ive got three lovely kids and have overcome loads of health risks to be here. He turned up for breakfast a month ago on sunday after being in Barbados,we were all playing with the dogs in the garden and Billy hit me in the ankle very hard with tennis ball just as my dad was getting out the car (which i didnt see pulling up) and i turned round to Billy and called him a stupid fuck (which wasnt very lady like of me) but anyway he hasnt spoken to me since that day,i sent him a text asking why he wasnt talking to me,and he said back a text saying -He was disgusted by the way i acted in front of my kids and that im no role model and he doesnt want any more to do with me. I am very hurt and upset but am not going to do anything about it,as if he is that shallow he isnt worth bothering about.My mum is disgusted as is my brother and sister,and i have cried most of the night but im strong and ill get over this.He was never much of a father anyway,he may have a great job and his own buisness but he hit my mum over the years,he drink drives and is a womaniser and left my mum when my sister was a baby,he is a control freak and im jumping off his rollercoaster of affections for my own mental health-but god i cant believe this has happened! I havent brodcast this as im so upset but i feel better getting it out on here-thanks for reading and listening to me,
Leigh xx
