Warning the wines open tonight....

Arrrrgggg,this is the second time around for me writing my blog today as the first time was lost as i hadnt connected to the net.duh idiot eh ! Anyway had my dreaded visit with my renal transplant consultant yesterday, it went well appart from her saying "very good" at every interval possible...what is very good about all this?? She is pleased with my transplants general health but has said she feels ive got cancer because of the drugs they put me on to keep my kidney going and she would like to reduce them to give my body a chance to fight the cancer,silly me i thought as i already had a kidney transplant it was plain sailing after getting the old ones removed,not so it seems,there is a fine balance between keeping the kidney going and letting my body fight the cancer,she also said ive got a blockage in my right arm because of my fistula (looks a bit like a varacose vien,attractive...not) which will need unblocked if i need dialysis again so wee op needed there. The ct scan showed something on my lungs but she said we needed the results of my mri to tell what it is,my cholestorol was high-too many cream cakes in the car me thinks! So need to work on that as well. The nicest part of the visit was when i was leaving and she said "if anyone can fight this you can" It feels good that she has such faith in me but why is my life such a fight just to stay alive?? Went to work today mainly to get away from my boyfriend who seems to think that our sex life should be back to normal now i know whats wrong with me,yeah right,like i feel like a roll in the hay right now,bloody men eh. Went for a wee walk at the local harbour and picnic with the difficult daughter and had a nice time till we got home and i wouldnt order her a new contract mobile so shes away sulking in her room,charming eh! Ive just made a lovely veggy dish with fresh courgetters from my boss's garden and have finally opened that bottle of white wine ive had chilling,beware everyone around me by the end of this bottle this night could go one way or the other!! Take care and thoughts to the family of the wee girl just diagnosed with kidney cancer, just be her normal parents thats all she needs from you right now Leigh xx