Ive had a pretty busy couple of weeks and appart from a niggle in my back under my ribs on the right side, and feeling tired all the time ive considered myself to be pretty well.I decided not to ask my gp about my back and wait till i saw the big boss at transplant clinic on Wed,was that a mistake or not? Before i knew it i was whipped along to x ray to look for any fractures,extra bloods were taken and a ct scan ordered,she then went on to tell me the possibilitys of me having secondry bone cancer was quite high especially as i was still on immunosuppresion,and i have a bit renal bone weakness too,my bloods were good but they always have been so i wasnt overly worried about my kidney failing,i was asked to have a smear which was done yesterday and wasnt at all as bad as you imagine it to be,mind you the nurse made me laugh when she said that if men had to have smears they would develop a test that you could just pee on a stick-how true! This morning i feel drained and worried and my wee one is playing up asking for a pj day with me which ive given into as its half day here,I dont think billy is overly impressed but to be honest i dont have the energy to fight with an 11 year old today.Well thats the bad stuff out the way on to the good stuff-
i was finally awarded some DLA and it was backdated,woo hoo,so i was able to treat a few folk to nice things,i got my mum a new mobile,billy wanted a tattoo and a model car and some clothes,the kids got some new clothes and i bought myself a wii-the best thing ive ever bought,i love it and although i know deep down im not working out hard i have a go on the wii fit every day with the kids and its great being able to spend some time with them having fun! If you dont have one get one!!! I have given up my cleaning job whuch was far too much for me anyway but i felt i had to do it for the extra cash and ive got a free bus pass which means billy and i have been out a few times for a wander in town which i wouldnt usually have done,im getitng cbt for the panic attacks,which is helping slightly (although i had a biggy last night) and i bought a pair of walking trainers for the nicer weather to try and get out and about more,still havent been out alone yet but hey companys good!
Hope your all well,i do read your blogs and i am absolutly delighted for Angela and her good news and may many more of us beat this disease
Leigh xx
