Well,i had transplant clinic today which went quite well,just have to wait on results to see how my new kidneys behaving,i had protein and blood in my urine and my weigh was up by 2 kilos which i felt bad about but they wernt too worried about,i thought after all the dancing i did on Sat night i would have lost at least a stone,but hey never mind! We spoke about the swine flu jab which i am nervous about but my consultant had hers that morning and felt ok,i know early days but if she had it so can i!! I was telling her that i had come off my prozac and felt ok and that i had been meant to start a new antidepressant but hadnt as im feeling so good just now,the only slight worry i have and havent voiced to anyone is that i feel slightly high,not overly,but just a little more talkative than usual,a little more energy than usual,a little more able to deal with things than usual and i know you will think im weird but i have been down for so long that this slight change worries me-i dont want to end up high as a kite,or is this just the effects of years of prozac wearing off and me finally getting my health back? Maybe im only happy when im worrying!
I had my big night out sat and it was good but god i payed for it sun/mon-my feet were killing me,i was dehydrated,grumpy and sore so this weekend i am defo taking it easy,im past clubbing!! We have been invited out to a fancy dress party but to be honest i dont mind staying in and watching the x factor-sad eh! Ive got a few smaller nights out coming up,my first ann summers party ever,a girly night out with good food,good wine,and a gossip and a body shop party tomorrow night so thats suits me.
Logan is going to a kids day at maggies centre on sat which is an info day for kids under 12 who are affected by cancer,they get a tour round the hospital,even behind the scenes,lunch and an art session with a therapist,then parents are invited in to see how the experts think your kids are coping with cancer.He is nervous about going but i think it will do him the world of good as he is still getting up during the night and sleeping on my floor and when my dad had him away he was crying for me a few times,i want him to feel secure and happy in his life and not have to worry thats his mummy is going anywhere.
Anyway,im off to catch up with my daughter who has graced us with her presence in the living room tonight! xx
