Well i started my first shift in the lauderette on Tuesday and this is me just getting round to writing my blog as my arms have been so bloody sore after all the lifting,maybe a natural way to loose my bingo wings hey gals! It was hard hard work,made harder by the fact ive mostly sat on my fat ass since i was diagnosed in July but thats my own fault.The day went quickly,and it was so sweet as you had a few that just came in for a cuppa and a chat,maybe in the only person they chat to in the whole day so i was very nice to them and patient-made them tea and everything! I think once my body gets used to it im going to enjoy the company of others,on the downside i had to put a big fat smelly guys socks into a machine who must collect them for the month,i had to stand back from the machine and wash my hands twice afterwords! I made £27 in tips so was delighted,the kids got treated to a chippy on the way home,i had to there is no way i could have cooked as i was shattered and i had booked my body shop party that night. The party went well and the girl running it took £518 in sales which she was delighted with and it meant i got 25 quid worth of stuff free and £200 worth of stuff for £60 so thats a lot of my christmas shopping done which is a great help. The only (2)spanners in the works the last couple of days is that ive had 6 panic attacks in the last 3 days, two when my body shop party was on,but thankfully no one saw or heard anything. The other worry is that i clean for a couple on a Monday which if im working in the lauderette i cant do anymore and im scared to ask if i can change to a Thursday so i can do it all,they are on holiday just now so ill cross that bridge when i come to it.If they are not happy i will have to give up which i dont want to do.
I have another op in January to get the other kidney out which im not looking forward to at all and i know its got lesions on it and i have a greater chance of developing cancer or do i leave it and take the risk...desisions desisions.
My dads back from holiday now and he phoned yesterday asking if he could take me to Morrisons and pay for my shopping....hell yes,so the kids are wanting fajitas and angel delight for tea tonight(not together!),so there wish is my command!
Got the doctors again today to see about my mood,i do feel brighter and not so desperate but ive had more panic attacks than usual which is upsetting.
Anyway hope all is well with you lot,i see Kelc has had a healthy baby girl.well done,and Christine is away to get married-congratulations and enjoy your honeymoon xx
