I wanted a nice day yesterday,just lazing about watching dvds ect,but it didnt turn out like that,i ended up running about for school uniform in the morning and wee i got tired and pissed off. Came home and wanted a nap but my 10 year old was playing up,not wanting to do anything or go out to play with his pals,so i ended up having to pay my 18 year olds £5 just to watch his brother for an hour so i could have a rest,anyway,cut a long story short i got up to a tip,i mean a tip,empty juice bottles everywhere,the dishwasher was needing emptied but there was a mass pile of dirty dishes in the kitchen,the wee one was hungry,the floors were soaking as it had been raining and no one shut the back door,so i was pretty annoyed,i started to tidy up and cook dinner and not one person asked if i needed help,so i blew my top and shouted and cried while hoovering like a mad woman. Daniels said he didnt know what my problem is as he watched my son(his brother) all afternoon and i shouted in front of everyone DONT COMPLAIN ABOUT ONE AFTERNOON BECAUSE IF THIS THING KILLS ME YOULL BE WATCHING HIM THE REST OF YOUR LIFE AND YOU WONT GET PAID FOR THAT. What a cow i felt after but im so bloody stuborn i wouldnt say sorry,i upset everyone and the worst bit is for one second it felt good. im such a bitch but i need help just now not my life made harder. Then to top it off my 13 year old daughter wanted to stay at a friends for the 3rd time this week as she hates being round me as it reminds her of how ill i actually am...eh??? I dont have two heads,its not catching and i still look the same,even getting the lippy out once and a while.
Anyway off to get ready to see consultant,im bloody ready for her! Take care everyone and have a good day
Leigh xx (a bit loopy leigh right now!)
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You are much better off having a rant and shouting when you feel like it than bottling it all up, honest! You will ALL get through this and yes, life will change, and that's what they your family are all not coping with at the moment, but a swift kick from you here and there should put them right! Anyway, this site is the perfect place for random blahing and getting stuff off your chest and having people who listen and understand what you are going through makes you feel a lot less alone with all the crap. Hope everything goes well with the consultant. I'll be thinking of you. ;-)
Hey Leigh don't feel such a bitch probably did them some good. Give them a heads up. You did exactly what I'd have done, bang about moaning and bitching "Is they only me can empty a dishwasher, its not rocket science doesn't have a combination lock on its door" Yeah been there done that got the T-shirt. Your 13 year old sounds like my 30 year old. He's still at home but is having a 2nd interview for a job 5 hours away, now I would love them to move out if it was right but my other son has told me he's doing it because he doesn't want to be around when his dad starts going down hill. Think he will regret not spending this time with his dad but hell he's 30 also he's bloody hopeless don't think he knows his clothes are not magical and someone actually washes and iron's em.
All the best with the consultant and remember there only human even if they don't act it sometime.
Just read your blog and it made me laugh and cry! You are so NOT a bitch you are human and god you cannot possibly be able to be "normal" everyday! We as sufferers and Mums try and put on a brave face most of the time for their sake but occasionally we crack, perfectly normal i say!
I laughed cos you sound exactly like i would have been when my kids were younger, fortunately they are three lovely grown women now but its credit to me how they have managed this LOL Your kids will be just like that having a major rant once in a while will make them sit up and think believe me darling.
Anyway you ve made me smile today when i was feeling pretty rough so thank you for that, and keep the stories coming!
You are deffo not a bitch! Fancy having to pay your kids to look after their brother! They're selfish little shits and deserve a shouting at and I don't blame you one bit. I'd have done the same and I wouldn't have cooked their dinner either! 18 is old enough to take a bit of responsibilty. There are young people of 18 fighting in the army. Remind them of that. I think, when you're calm. it might be a good idea to sit everybody down and discuss a few house rules while you're feeling tired and poorly.
