I wanted a nice day yesterday,just lazing about watching dvds ect,but it didnt turn out like that,i ended up running about for school uniform in the morning and wee i got tired and pissed off. Came home and wanted a nap but my 10 year old was playing up,not wanting to do anything or go out to play with his pals,so i ended up having to pay my 18 year olds £5 just to watch his brother for an hour so i could have a rest,anyway,cut a long story short i got up to a tip,i mean a tip,empty juice bottles everywhere,the dishwasher was needing emptied but there was a mass pile of dirty dishes in the kitchen,the wee one was hungry,the floors were soaking as it had been raining and no one shut the back door,so i was pretty annoyed,i started to tidy up and cook dinner and not one person asked if i needed help,so i blew my top and shouted and cried while hoovering like a mad woman. Daniels said he didnt know what my problem is as he watched my son(his brother) all afternoon and i shouted in front of everyone DONT COMPLAIN ABOUT ONE AFTERNOON BECAUSE IF THIS THING KILLS ME YOULL BE WATCHING HIM THE REST OF YOUR LIFE AND YOU WONT GET PAID FOR THAT. What a cow i felt after but im so bloody stuborn i wouldnt say sorry,i upset everyone and the worst bit is for one second it felt good. im such a bitch but i need help just now not my life made harder. Then to top it off my 13 year old daughter wanted to stay at a friends for the 3rd time this week as she hates being round me as it reminds her of how ill i actually am...eh??? I dont have two heads,its not catching and i still look the same,even getting the lippy out once and a while.
Anyway off to get ready to see consultant,im bloody ready for her! Take care everyone and have a good day
Leigh xx (a bit loopy leigh right now!)
