Well,i was up bright and early today,showered,dressed and pills done,only had one cuppa as ive seen the loos in the lauderette.....oh my god im so scare i need to pee when im there,imagine,dark dingy basement,bare stone walls,spiders webs,piles of uncollected washing wee hole at the back with a single light bulb and a toilet thats never seen domestos in its life,so the less i drink before i go there the better! I got opened up without setting off the alarms which was good,and soon got into the swing of things,i felt a bit of an idiot though as i am tryng to eat better and here i was with my houmus and corrot on burgen bread sarnie with a bottle of water and an apple and the others were having egg and bacon rolls and choccie biscuits,i am not going to start eating like that when im there or im never going to get rid of the bingo wings! Busy day and i was delighted when Billy came for me,i had earned enough from my tips to pay for my sisters birthday cake from the pastry shop so that made me feel good,went there,then home to bed with a cuppa,which i woke up to three hours later stone cold!! Must have needed a snozze hu! Katie was home in bed as she had managed to be sick in school and in the street outside the house,poor wee thing,every time she gets her period she is v sick,doc gave her tablets but they dont seem to be helping,so looks like were back again this week.
Mum,brother and sister were round for chinese tonight which was was nice,poor katie missed it as she couldnt get out of bed but still it was lovely.My first real day at work and Billy had a sick stepdaughter to deal with and he even managed to clean the house......who says men cant multi task! Off to bed now after flash forward and work tomorrow afternoon,so freezer food for tomorrow night!
Havent heard from the social work dept,they havent rushed in and taken my kids off me yet so thats a good thing,and ive asked my cleaning job if i could change days and they didnt mind at all so thats good.
Only one panic attack today first thing in the morning,think it might have been stess over my first proper day,but no more so im pleased with that although none would be nice!
See another storm has been on mac,i dont like the fact i have to add somene as a friend to send them a pm but thats the site rules so i have to obey them,i dont feel its a competition to see how many friends we each have but i do know i do tend to speak to similar sex and age patients as i feel i have more in common with them but i dont exclude anyone.
Brother,sister and mum were round tonight for
