Well back to the hospital for me again today,saw my Doctor at 9 AM who wasn't happy with me even though id done everything id been asked,id had that much laxatives that i almost put a "DO NOT ENTER" sign on the upstairs bathroom door incase of emergencies!! I was seen by yet another urology surgeon and his sidekick who took bloods,stuck a finger up my ass......risky move! and generally prodded about for a while till they decided what to do with me,my veins in my good arm(no fistula) have almost all gone into hiding so my precious blood was taken from my wrist,ouchy,but never mind! They decided i might now have a small hernia which hasn't shown up on my ct scan,then after some two ing and fro ing they then informed me that my muscles on the right side are weakened compared to the left and Ive had them strained to much with surgery over the years- hernia op,pd catheter,gallbladder removal,kidney transplant,kidney removal which has all been on the right side,and the nerves are damaged too. Ive been told that anxiety makes pain worse so now i just feel they dont believe me and that im a right head case. I know this im not stupid and i have been trying to deal with my anxiety.Ive been told to this might never pass completely and to continue on paracetamol till im reviewed by the surgeon in 8 weeks time just before ei get the left kidney out.Needless to say ive spent half the day in tears,my mums getting on my nerves (the good ones!) by saying maybe i just need to do more exercise to help me and that i should get out more,but i dont feel like doing anything much at the moment apart form sleep. I still dont feel completely satisfied with the outcome today so im going back to my transplant team on Wed and see what they think.
My daughters 14th birthday on Sunday and we have the family coming over for chinese so looking forward to that,she has two friends staying over Sat night so earplugs will be used for that!!
Hope everyone else is ticking over nicely and enjoys a nice weekend with family and friends xx
