Good day all,hope your all well and unlike us here in Scotland have a little sunshine left. Our summer is defo over,well im not sure it ever started but anyway,the garden furnature went back in the hut today,a sure bad sad sign that the nights are drawing in (love that expression) that it wont be long till all the ads for christmas start showing and you want to make soup! I feel safer in winter,i can hide my scars under long loose winter clothing without being asked if im too hot ect all the time. i can wear trousers and boots and scarves and not have to worry about showing my torso,daft i know,i should be glad to be alive but all this has really taken its toll on my body and too be honest im disgusting.Anyway,im loved by my family the way i am so thats a good thing.
I feel a little sore today but thats maybe because i had to reduce my painkillers as i messed up yesterday and think i almost overdosed on them,i seemed to take something every two hours instead of four and got mixed up with doses ect so trying to lay off them a little today.Had a shower as Billy ex boss said him and wife were coming for coffee,but didnt turn up,had even managed to get a glean pair of joggies on but had to chance them to pj bottoms as it hurts! Still cant get a bra on as i have staples just underneith a boob and have managed to pull one out already. I thought today i would have the urge to leave the house but i certainly dont,and im not rushing into it.
I know ive had surgery to remove the kidney with the tumour and have still got the other one to go so does that mean im officially cancer free now or do i need more tests ect to be able to tell? I am confused!
I also wonder about all those who have cancers that are cured,are they at risk of developing cancer again more than others?
Anyway,feel like cooking tonight,so away to do a spag bol,much love to everyone
Leigh xx
