More disappointment

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FormerMember

9 Jun 2011

Got the results of my lymph biopsy today and unfortunately they have found some cancer in one of them so it looks like it will be axillary node clearance as well as all the other stuff on 23rd. I shouldnt be disappointed really, but i kind of hung on the words of my oncologist the last time I saw him and he said he thought that the nodes would be clear, given that all the scans etc came back negative.

I dont want to get down and miserable because up to now i have been so positive and just getting through the days cfounting down to the op. I always feel when they deliver news they water things down and treat you sometimes like you are stupid.

This is my body and i need to know, i dont want any watered down version i want the real deal. My BCN is lovely but i sometimes think she talks to me like im stupid or she holds things back. (or am i just feeling sad and miserable)

Whatever he says it will just add another 20 minutes to the operation to do the clearance, and of course definitley chemo. I was prepared for the chmo bit in any case. It just seems that at the moment every bit of news i get is negative when will this get better?

But as I keep saying, tomorrow is another day, i have to remain positive and hopeful, although this has to be my most difficult moment yet. I know I will likely have more to come.

Jules :(

FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hello Jules. Sorry about the blip in your treatment plan, but stay strong and positive - they will look after you and get it sorted. Take care and all my best wishes. Love, Joycee xx
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

hi jules ,

Sorry about the anxillary nodes hun, I too have to have anxillary clearance, im trying not to let it get me down, alot of great people on here who have had the treatment before us give us alot of advice and it is so helpful xxxx thanks nutcracker for the advice on the pj's and the deodrants xxx angie xxxx
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Jules

My mum was like you but 9 years ago; she had the full works, mastectomy, chemo, radio, lymph nodes removed....

And 9 years on, she's fine - still as mad and busy as ever, never at home and living life to the full.

A positive state of mind is essential and a great set of friends, ones that treat you as a person, just like before all this, that talk about stupid things and make you laugh, that don't tread on eggshells around you and that won't worry if you cry, that can cry with you if you need.

And have chocolate - that's essential!

I don't know if you have a faith but if you do, now's the time to really use it too. Mine helps me to deal with my husband's cancer and helps him too and our 9 year old son.

And how are your family coping? They need support too.. people will ask how YOU are and sometimes forget the rest of your essential TEAM. Try and make sure people remember them too.....

Keep strong and remember we are all here for you....

Kate
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