I dont know whether i am just being over sensitive, or not understanding or just being plain stupid. I must admit since my diagnosis i do tend to suffer with brain fog!!!!!
I had a phone call today from an ex work colleague, cant say we are great friends i would say more acquantnces, although she has seemed very interested in my plight so far. She knew i was having my biopsy results on Thursday and to be honest i didnt take her calls because i just didnt want to talk about my bad news, and her treat it all so flippantly.
when she called again today i thought i had better take the call, the first thing she greeted me with was this.........O Jules you wont believe this, but can i join your 'cancer club' as she said it she was laughing hysterically and told me she had been referred by her doctor to the skin specialist as he thought she may have a melanoma under her big toe, and it could only happen to us HA HA. She then proceeded to tell me all about her new caravan and how much it was, and her new car and how much it was and finally her forthcoming holiday..... and how much it was.
Hey i know life goes on but i didnt appreciate her comments about the 'cancer club' and even moreso she didnt even bother to ask me about my results, or how i was doing. Does she think having cancer is a joke, she did say to me once that if she was in my position she would lock herself away and never come out.
She is currently off work with stress and depression, and to be honest this is how i feel when i have spoken to her. Im not sure if i am just being oversensitive or even perhaps selfish?..................... I am supposed to be going out on tuesday with her for lunch and i am dreading it. My daughters were really cross after the call and have said i shouldnt go to lunch because it will bring me down.
When i worked with her i dont think i ever got to know her well but over the last few months it seems she dines out on my situation. My partner wonders why i give her the time of day, and i am begining to wonder why i do too.
Anyway had to rant about that folks sorry but feel better for doing so, i think i need to gently tell her how i feel................ but would she really understand.
On a positive note I saw my beautiful grandaughters today, the sun was shining and we all sat in the garden. I realise that i am very lucky to have such a wonderful family and i actually do have some genuine caring friends, including of course my fab macland mates.
My man has given me a new nickname 'WEEBLE' i frrequently wobble but dont fall down and guess what................. I wont.
Love
Jules xx
