Well after my ridiculous trauma with the MRi i think i may a little stable now (mentally I mean). I have seen the consultant the oncologist and today the plastics man.
My experience with the oncologist was good,he was human yes human and get this he had a sense of humor, he made the discusson so much more easy, and i felt i was able to ask as many questions as i wanted to.
Well it turns out that this dark evil visitor i have is getting the old heave ho on 23rd June and good riddance I say. The chink of light at the end of my very long and at times dark tunnel is glinting just a little. It turns out he can perform the DIEP procedure for reconstruction so his words not mine (although I thought them) i get a free tummy tuck on the NHS yeeeeeeehaaaaaaa. I am scared witless but of course to everyone around me I am Jules the invinceable wonder woman. How hard that is to keep up i can tell you.
Wednesday is sentinel node biopsy day and so the journey begins...................... of course i dont want to get carried away but his words of encouragement on Wednesday were so welcome. It is still 50 50 if I have to have chemotherapy and he believes the nodes are clear according to allof the scans/MRI. however the microscope will tell all and if he was a betting man he would agree. So watch this space, yet another cliffhanger my fingernails have become very sore with hanging on the edge............... I mean the edge of reason. :)
Here is to positivity, guts, bravery, determination, and finally acceptance there is no other choice for me.
Jules xx
