I went to see the surgeon yesterday the one who saved my life when my bowel burst.
We discussed the reversal of my stoma, he is going to refer me in 2 months when I have gotten over my chemo which ends at the end of March.
I was hoping he would refer me now due to waiting times etc. I want to be put back together again before september when I am due to go to my boyfriends grandaughters wedding in Zante. At this rate I guess I will still have my stoma.
I have gotten used to my friend, but will be glad to see the back of him if it is possible,.
That is another thing the surgeon mentioned just how much scar tissue I might have, and it may not be possible because of that. We will have to wait and see.
I had forgotten why I was having chemotherapy, just going along with it and taking it in my stride.
Yesterday I was reminded why and it upset me, it brought everything back that has happened to me these past 4 years.
My darling husband died after 4 years from mesothelioma, then 2 years later I got bowel cancer, missed by the doctors for a whole year, thus causing it to grow big enough to burst my bowel.
I do realise that I am soooo very lucky compared to others on this site, I am usually very strong.
Yesterday the surgeon reminded me that I have had cancer and it frightened me and I later got upset.
I am due for a scan on friday to see if I am still cancer free, that is scaring me too.
I am sorry if I upset anyone on here because I do realise that there are people on here alot worse off than me.
I hate the word me it sounds so selfish.
Love to everyone I know on here and to those I don't. Julie XXXXXX
