Hello all. I have never done this before, written a blog that is. I have fancied writing a blog before but never thought it would be about this. I have never had to deal with cancer before either. I feel the need to write things down. I thought about a diary or a journal but then thought it would be too depressing. Too insular. So, I'll type it here and we can share.
The difficulty I have is that I am writing this in the computer room of my parents' house. My adult sister also lives here with them. I am married and live about 25 miles away but I've been here all Christmas because I was forewarned of my father's most likely diagnosis on about 9 Dec 2009. It was confirmed on 30 Dec then again on 31 Dec by the Neuro-Oncologist. The reason I am putting pen to paper now is this; my mother and sister do not yet know that my father is terminally ill. He wanted to get New Year out of the way so as to let them enjoy it. The quiet before the storm. You may think that sounds bizarre but I don't. I understand completely. I also think he needs to let it sink in for himself too. We have not mislead them into a false sense of security or hope but we have been perhaps tellingly silent on the issue. My father has gone out today with his best mate to tell him. He wants me to break the news to my mum and sister. He can't be here and I understand. My heart is racing and I feel sick. My husband is standing by to come here but we both thought it best to leave us three to it for the next few hours. I'll come back when I've done this. This blog is going to be helpful.
J
