Well had my review with the consultant its now 3 months since my final chemo, only had to wait half an hour so thats not bad, would have been quicker if I had not had to wait for bloods to be done.
In gereral they are happy with my progress, chatted about how I felt and issues I had with the after effects of chemo and all as to be expected, but when I asked was I fit to travel for insurance purposes.... after a may be, probably ok, well better wait till after the next pet scan to make sure, so no trip to tenerife, it was a bargin too. So I have to wait till the end of Feb to have the scan and see him again to get confirmation re my status. which means they are happy I don't need monthly check ups, thats good. Talked about the odds of it reoccuring and signs to lookout for just to confirm what I understood, he explained I would still be experiencing various aches and pains as I had been through alot. Yet I find I don't think that way and it is hard sometimes just to step back and accept this is how it is as I don't know how it should be if that makes sense.
So it has set me contemplating what do we really expect post chemo/surgery, when does the peripheral neuropathy disappear or is this how it will be, if so I want a new set of feet lol. Why do I suffer with a dry mouth and have to use synthetic saliva when it was only an issue at the start of chemo and seems to have crept back long after chemo finished. With the various abdominal pains how can you ever be sure you know what your body is trying to tell you. no one knows!
I guess I am not alone in moving forward and I know life won't be the same but I will try dam hard to make sure that its my like and not controlled by those evil little B Cells that thought they would come out to play. Hopefully they have been kicked into the long grass and are lost and long may it stay that way.
Wells thats enough of contempating today now on with the serious stuff, tonights meal ..... think it will have to be beef and squash stew with cheddar mash, off I go to prepare ... oh and a glass of nice chilled white cheers
hope everyone is as well as can be expected
john
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