Suffering a bit with frustration today. There's the stuff you know, and the stuff you don't know. It's now eight weeks since I had my melanoma removed at the biopsy and six weeks since the result - it was 1.5 mil thick. The doctor who gave me the news stressed how urgently I had to get to see the dermatologists / oncolgists at Jimmy's. Hurry, hurry ... got there, but now it'sbeen three weeks of lolling about, with another two before the pencilled date for the WLE / SLNB.
I have no idea whether this passage of time matters or not. How active are any melanoma cells left around the original site likely to be? If they are there and they are left for two months, are they as likely to spread as the original MM? The hospital doesn't seem too worried, but as I said to my partner, if my destiny is to be killed by melanoma, then I'll just have to accept it, but I'm damned if I want to be killed by bureaucracy.
Because Jimmy's is a teaching hospital the SLNB is part of a clinical trial, and that has been one of the reasons for the delay - it requires a general anaesthetic and they couldn't fulfil one of their lists for want of an anaesthetist. I suspect that if I had taken the option of the WLE only, it would have been done by now.
Anyway moan over. Can't be positive 100% of the time. Actually, apart from the frustration of waiting, I'm still OK with the MM, I sometimes ask myself if I'm in denial, but I don't think so. Tonight Pizza for tea, and two meals out over the weekend.
Hope anyone who reads this is feeling upbeat and positive - let's all try and enjoy "now" and worry about later, later :0)
Jim xx
