well , wont go into this week as long and very sad week, feeling very sorry for myself especially last couple of days until today, i found some balls :)) , and stood up to my inlaws, and my god it felt good, they havent visited for two days as we are only doing every other day, then were due to come today but hubby said no, so i put them off and they were all fine or so i thought !! till i thought id be nice and ring mum inlaw to let her know hubby was peacefully sleeping, why did i bother ? she informed me no matter what she was coming tommorow to see her son, no matter what i said , well i told her in no unceartain terms that if he did not want to see her ,then she was NOT going to see him, she tried to argue but i told her she needs to respect his wishes and put him first, or shes not welcome , we left it that she will come at 12 tommorow unless i ring her and tell her not too, that was after telling her god knows how many times that 8 in morning is not a good time to visit , bloody woman,
quick update on hubby, mac nurse came for 2nd time this week and suggested syringe driver but hes still resisting, wants to wait till mon, i think hes scared of actually letting go, which is very hard for me as he is suffering so badly especially with sickness , but he knows what i think and must be his decision, so i need to keep strong for both of us for a little bit longer , no matter how hard that is sometimes ,,,,,,,
