Just as i feel ive stopped crying another relative rings and i have to tell them we have had more bad news , cancer has spread to hubbys brain, and their is swelling , he has almost lost all speech , and he is so upset ,bless him and all i could do was hold him as he cried , i dont think ive ever felt so sad as i do now, dr has increased steroid to try and help with swelling, and is speaking to oncologist about radiotherapy , but with so little time left and hubby being unable to leave the house is that practical, i have sat with him all day just holding his hand , i wish i could do more, he cant even eat at the moment , ive only managed a kit kat that was only coz i was shaking so much,
ive only left him now as his dad is with him, they need time, but i have said to ALL inlaws they need to keep visits short and let him rest , lets see if they listen ,i just hope they do, or i may not be responsible for my actions,
i now have the sad task of telling the children after school . how much more can we take, this disease is so vicious ,
must go for now, kettle is boiling again,
