Well as im on my 3rd bucket of decaff tea today , i thought id do a blog as im so grumpy and snappy its stupid , i had a better day yesterday and even popped into chat for a bit and got such a lovely welcome, so left early for an early night , but damn suprise suprise i couldnt sleep again ,and yes last night i tried a herbal sleeping tab as have worked before but it didnt help, i have got a lot on my mind but i just wish it would switch off for a few hours , trouble is the more tired i get the more my mind goes into over time ,i even went for a walk on the beach yesterday to clear my head but even that didnt work ,
I dragged myself out shopping earlier , and did some baking which did make me feel better, then sat down for a bit to watch tv and fell asleep on sofa for an hour thought id feel better but now feel worse and got a headache too :( , i was meant to be going out with my best friend today but couldnt face it as she would take one look at me and know i wasnt right ,i was also very tearful this morning which im not now ,but i do keep snapping at the kids but bless they just ignore me !
Im also still struggling to eat which is odd for me ,not that it will do me any harm i got a stone to lose , i will go back to gp this week as i know this cant go on or i will be no use to anyone ,not that im much use now , and i got tough 10 days coming up , will be 6 months since ju died , and also my birthday in 10 days which i desperatly wanted to ignore but my best friend hit the roof and said she wont let me ,but i honestly dont want to celebrate ,whats the point !
God that sounds awful and grumpy which isnt me ,well not when im sleeping any way , i think i need one of keezers huge kicks up the butt ,
Love and hugs to all xxxxx
