It seems a long time coming but i start work at the hospital tommorow ,i have wanted this job for so long and as i said to someone if its right it will happen , i am a firm believer in fate, so why am i so worried ? , im not sure if ive got the confidence to start again , ive been through so much ,and yes thats given me strength ,
Also im not ready to tell people im a widow ,its such a hard conversation but of course im still wearing all my rings and not sure if i can face not wearing them at work , as normal policy is no rings ,i also wear ju,s wedding ring on my necklace and we not allowed them either for health and safety ,
On the positive side which i always try and see , ive done so much studying over last few weeks so that should be a good start if i can get over my nerves , it will be a shock to my brain doing a 40 hour week again and using my brain ,
Im just trying to keep in my mind how proud ju would have been of me and hope that gets me through tommorow because if im honest im shaking in my boots, which i also was at the interview but that worked out ok , so lets hope so does tommorow , i will let you all know how it go,s hugs xxxx
