To some of you especially the men, this will seem a really daft blog but plz forgive me as i do feel it may help someone , i know as i was their a few months ago, after i lost ju apart from the emotional pain, i was lost with all the practical stuff ,im a typical woman ,which is why i have blonde and pink highlights as ju always said i should be blonde :) coz im daft as a brush ,,, but at least im honest !!!
So my first huge step was cutting the grass ,i did it ,albeit with tears streaming down my face , now i have it down to a fine art ,stripes and all ! and no tears ,
2nd step ,vegetable patch , i did it , with a little help to start with, but now have, tomatoes ,lettuce, radishes,spring onions and runner beans ,
3rd step , plants ,ive not killed any , everything is blooming especially a memorial rose i bought in ju,s memory, im starting to think i may have green fingers , (in my pink gloves as i dont do getting my hands dirty ) ,,
Next hurdle was do i pay someone to cut the hedge , no ! il do it myself , so i went and got a hedge trimmer this morning ,didnt honestly think id manage it , but wanted to try , and i bloody did it !!!! and no like everything else it was not easy and i cant reach the top so ill have to ask my tall daughter to finish it , but apart from that it looks really good ,
And the postmans face when i was swinging it around ,with headphones in my ears ,as he was trying to get my attention as had parcel for me ,was so funny, he did say he wasnt going to get in my way as i looked dangerous , lol
I know its prob sad to say but what an achievment or i feel it is , i mentioned it to a male friend earlier ,who was horrified ,and said i shouldnt have done it as its dangerous ,well i replied who else is going to do it theirs only me !
I may be daft , but im far more capable than i give myself credit for , and other people do , i have realised after today i am determined to at least try these things before asking for help ,im starting to feel much more positive im my abilities :)
And an update on footy tournament ,i have had a fab response , and done so much work ,sponsor forms out and done, flyers done, they look fab , their is a long way to go but once again i will do it ! i am bloody determined to move forwards with positivity , yes im not that daft ,i know i will still have bad days ,but im coping with them much better now ,
