well tommorow is the day ,back to work , yes same place that treated me so badly, but i need a focus ,to keep my mind busy, but i feel sick at the thought ,i dont know if im strong enough ,also doesnt help my fav resident is dying which isnt going to be easy, but ive got to do it, its what im good at giving someone that love and peace and kindness at the end ,
dont get me wrong i have been a bit brighter since fri, ive had a nice weekend, and quite a few smiles and laughs , which is a good start, but im not sure if i can find the confidence i need to deal with diffucult members of staff ,,
luckily im very busy today ,so shouldnt have to much thinking time, until tonight, but on the up side i slept well last night first time for months and it wasnt sleeping tablets either , im still resisting them thankfully ,,
and before i go as of swimming , thankyou to all my friends on here ,who have made me laugh and smile this weekend, and were holding my hand on fri xxx
