I have been battling my cancer for the last five years, I feel that this has held me back from really living and I am so annoyed with myself. Five years is a long time and I should be grateful that I have been given this time. I am terminally ill but still well enough to work and get about and supposedly have fun. I am writing this blogg in the hopes that is will help me keep my new years resolution which is to live like a normal person. I am single and feel that no one would want to be with me because of my cancer, I mean how can you inflict this uncertainty onto someone else. I can't even let myself get out there and have any fun as I feel too ugly because I am carrying around this horrible thing. I want to be a glass half full person instead of this pesimistic party pooper. I feel so bad that my days may end and I will not have shared some of those days with someone who would just like to hold my hand in a special way. This is here to remind me that I have to venture from my cacoon and that the only way to be loved is to give love...... Here is hoping that god may send someone special my way, Best wishes to everyone on this site and I apologise if my blogg seems a little selfish and self centered.
