I have to start by offering my apologies to you all. When I got the news that the little blighter had spread and in such a short time I must admit to feeling a little peeved/ So many people on here had gone several years before a recuurence and I had hoped for a couple of years not a measly few months.... but then it dawned on me I have had 55 years of good health before my little blighter became active and so many of you are so much younger than me. I really have no reason to be moaning, so I would like to offer my heartfelt apologies to you all. Well I got that off my chest so let's get on.....
So I'm off on the bus up to the Christie to get the results and have my hip zapped. It's quite a nice journey out from the centre of Manchester, you gopast a couple of really nice parks and of course they are full of trees whose leaves are turning. Now In many ways I'm still a kid at heart and I love kicking autumn leaves into the air.. I must admit it was very tempting I love the crunch they make when you stand on them, and their lovely smell. I have to admit I also like putting the first footsteps in virgin snow and I have to admit being unable not to peek at my christmas presents.
Anyway I finally got to the hospital and I was called in to see the oncologist. I asked about my ct scan...... multiple bone mets, but fortunately no soft tissue involvement at the minute. Change of meds from femara to tamoxifen we will give it three months and if it has had no effect then its back to good old chemo. Also will have to have zometa once a month, hopefully at the hospital in Bolton.
Now this is the moment where I should have kept my mouth shut.... but I needed to ask the question... you know the one I mean..... And having asked... well there has to be an answer doesn't there? So.. we have a figure 18 months to 2 years .. Well Bollocks to that I am aiming to get into remission ( a word I hated until today) and last for much longer than that!!!!
I have to admit for the first time this damn disease has reduced me to tears once I got home and had to speak to my husband..... but never again will I give it the power to do this.
The radio seemed to go well but iI was warned it could get painful in the next few days, so have the painkillers at hand ( and the bottle of organic whisky... well organic food is supposed to be better for you!!!!)
And as a fat lady who has just decided to lose the weight I do not inted singing for a very long time.
Take care all
Love Kathxx
