You would think that I would be able to deal with this by now,Hodgkins at aged 24,Breast Cancer 4 years ago and now 2 months ago diagnosed with Lung Cancer,but this time I feel I just can't fight it anymore and am filled with sheer terror that has taken over my life.I have been told that this will be followed by acceptance.Please can anyone tell me that this will happen soon,has it happend to you? Does it happen to every one?
Jan.
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Of course some people are naturally optimistic and have only had good and successful things happen to them before their lives are touched by cancer, so they are able to feel quite ebullient from the start (my partner's gonna beat this coz we always win), but I think that most of us have have been knocked off our feet before and therefore feel more vulnerable. You have CERTAINLY been run over backwards and forwards with a steamroller so I am not at all surprised that what you are experiencing is terror. I would suggest that you get some chemical help with this one. If you have already spoken to Cancer MacMillan nurses and this has not enabled you to step over into the right-let's-get-on-wtih-it phase, it might be that a few anxiety tablets would do the trick. When I am getting nightmares, I know it's time to up the dose of Lorazepam again! As for acceptance, well, I sometimes do Acceptance and sometimes I do total Denial ;) - whatever works for you.
All my very best love, special What Now hugs, and xxxxx Penny
Oh Penny how do you get a Macmillan Nurse? I didn't need any help with the last 2 cancers as I was positive and knew I could beat it and had a lot of encouragement from the the Docs treating me,but this time they have just told me the facts and how bad it is,sent me to see this Professor who is cold and distant with no attending nurse,he has wittered on about trying to get me on a drug that is not even readily available on the NHS and gave me an appointment to see him in 6 weeks time.I just feel as if I've been abandoned with uncomfortable symptoms and no hope of getting any proper treatment.I'm trying to get on with my life,supposed to be exhibiting my Jewellery at the Cheshire County Show next week,I just hope I can keep it together and do it.I'll try and get to see my GP before I go and get some medication for the anxiety as my legs keep turning to jelly.
Thank you so much Penny for talking to me about this.
you look in phone book. I wasn't told about them, and only found out through a fellow patient at the end of my first treatment. Then I asked at the hospital. Since then, as I was discharged from the hospital, they assigned me one from the Hospice as in a lot of places that is where they are based. Usually though I think there is one based at the hospital, so you could try ringing there first.
They will listen and will try to comfort you. I found that they are full of practical measures, eg financial tips as well. Even if they can't solve your problem, they can be someone to talk things over with openly. as we sometimes (or all the time in my case!) can't do with family and friends.
I really hope that this helps. Also that you are able to go to your Show in Cheshire - after all we need to keep being who we really are as well! Lots and lots of love Penny
We were put intouch with the Macmillan through our GP. We had a nurse assigned to us for my husband. I am still intouch with them because I see a councillor.
It is so sad that you have been assigned to a cold git and that you do not have an appointment for 6 weeks. It is just too long to leave someone hanging in limbo.
Dont be afraid to talk to the help line on here they are also a great comfort.
Hope all goes well for you at the Cheshire show, it wont be easy im sure but try to put your health out of your mind for just a few hours and enjoy yourself with your jewellery.
