Living rent free inside me

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Today i go to the Beatson for my pre-verifacation scan have no idea what that means but know it will be on table mask back in place ....when i was there last week got to talk to my oncologist and consultant RT Maureen who is fantastic they told me all the things that could /might or might not happen to my skin and mouth during treatment ..my friend Brian was there and my daughter and to be honest someof it went over my head as everyone except me was asking questions ...my head was in a spin .today i hope to get a chance to get some one on one time go over a few points and one thing i have never done is to ask to see my mask with the marks to see where they will be targeting not sure if knowledge is power or a little knowledge is a dangerous thing ....sometimes i dont want to know and just trust in them to do the job and get rid of this thing thats been living rent free inside me for heaven only knows how long time for it to move out .

Woke up early as usual wish i could sleep longer .guess that might happen when my RT starts but would like it to be more a natural sleep ...than a exhausted induced one feel i could just go back to sleep now for a little while so might lay down again for a rest dont have to leave until 12 ..

Hope everyone is has a good day today and a worry free one which i know only to well is very hard ..

God Bless

Love and hugs

Jan x

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Jan,

    A wee bit of help for you, I hope, if you decide to have a head to head with your Consultan/ RT Maureen whom you seem to be on the same wave length as. Bring a notepad with you and write down some of the questions you would like to ask,so when you go in at least you will be able to write down the answers,and mind ease the worry. Its worth a try.  Look after yourself.

    Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hello Jan. I hope all went well for you today and you found some answers to the questions which were in your mind. Sarsfield is right about taking a notepad to any consultations - I also forgot to ask a lot of things too. Yes, you have to put your trust in the RT team as they are going evict your unwanted squatter ! Take care and God Bless. Love, Joycee xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    hi hun

    hope everything went well for you today im just back on here charger went down and ive been pulling what hair i have left out lol!!!! thinking of you as always you can do it good luck hun let me know how you are doing as for never asking questions im useless come out and remember things i wanted to ask an didnt just glad to get out of there funny isnt it im like a rat up a drain pipe and cant wait to leave the oncologist in his little silly office maybe its all in my head but as long as im in there im ill and i cant be facing up to that no way so tell me whats happening as quick as poss and let me go back to my life away from hospitals and cancer !!! chemo tomorrow my last one till i have my scan and see whether i have to get more chemo rt or what or if its stable just have to wait and see fingers crossed eh girl stay strong love ad hugs jen freedom!!!! xxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Jan,

             I hope things went well today and you had the chance to ask questions. In my opinion, knowledge is power as not knowing may make you worry even more. If there is anything you are not sure of, please ask, even if it is something you have already been told. At times like these it is only natural that we don't always take in all the information, so keep asking until you are satisfied.

    Rest when you need to and remember we are all rooting for you.

          Sending you lots of positive vibes,

               Love and hugs,

                    lizzie xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    My love and thanks to everyone for your help in getting me to that better place in my mind even though i drift off course most of the time

    never saw anyone i knew to ask much today did find out my cisplatin does on monday will be higher but i hope that it wont affect me too much ..or maybe thats wishful thinking cant think of going through all that bad feeling especially when RT side effects will be waiting somewhere along the line to jump on me

    love and hugs

    Jan x