I want to scream!!

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My dad was diagnosed with mesothelioma on the 31st July.  So far he's doing okay. He's had his second lot of chemo so feeling quite tired and sick sometimes but trying to keep positive.

My mum isn't doing so well.  She went to see a therapist today which helped a wee bit but we'll see as the sessions go on how it really helps, if any.  I try to get her to talk to me but she doesn't want to burden me with her feelings too.

 My sister has got them so upset tonight.  She lives down south and has been up to see my dad twice since he was diagnosed... the only two times in the past year and half.  Now she says she has split with her other half and moving back in with my folks tomorrow.  I am soooo angry! She is getting tests done at the doctors at the moment and there could be something wrong with her, but this could just be a virus.  My dad's immune system can't take that gamble.  She barely acknowledged them when he was fine and now she expects to move home with them and everything will be okay. 

I so wish i could tell her how I really feel, about how much more stress this is causing them and how I can't be there to help them as much as i could as I still have to work, although I only live 5 miles away. I wish she would grow up...and she's older than me.

Sorry, this is my first post and I just needed a release or I might scream and wake the neighbours!!

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