it's a gay old life

  • blogging to survive

    Writing as therapy is an established coping mechanism but I would be interested to hear a health professional's view of this growing modern day phenonema and its health benefits.  I believe blogging is basket weaving for the twenty first century.
    There are an incredible variety of blogs out there.  Some are deeply emotional, some educational, others full of humour.  They are real life soap operas. 
    I was recently…

  • Hiroshima

    Hiroshima

    The sound of the chemo running through my head is deafening. I feel as if I am a passenger on an early space shuttle, we are taking off and I have been strapped to a reclining seat. I am issued with a light blue hospital blanket, a nylon sleep mask and for protection, a pair of two dollar noise reduction headphones. Hopeless and helpless.

    Now in flight, my chair is…

  • farewell to my smile

    The news was as miserable as I had feared.  They want to remove SIX teeth.  I could barely speak to the dentist when she told me.  Four of the teeth are wisdom teeth and two others form the side of my smile.  I made it past reception, found a quiet(ish) corner and cried.  Of course, I know the prospect of being alive is more important than having teeth but my smile makes  up a big part of who I am and it feels a particularly…

  • teeth, camera, action

    I am meeting with the hospital dentist today to decide how many teeth I can keep ahead of my radiotherapy treatment to my neck.  I asked my nurse last week how they would replace any they remove.  She replied without a moment's hesitation, 'They won't. You can't have any replaced or even dentures fitted for at least a year after treatment until your gums have recovered.'   Time stopped, I felt physically…

  • Bang! There goes the French doors

    In January I was having romantic dinners on the beach in Koh Samui, in February I had a fantastic annual appraisal at work and planning the year ahead with my team, in March on a routine check up my doctor tells me I have a tumour on my tonsil that is probably benign but will need removing. 


    The recovery from the tonsillectomy has been as long and painful as the doctors predicted.  Seriously, if I managed to shower…