It has been 3 weeks since I have had an operation - hysterectomy and appendix removal and biopsy of the omentum. This was following the removal of an ovarian cyst that was removed and tested - the reaults were borderline. I am waiting for the biopsy results to see if the cyst has affected my stomach or not . It is hell. I want the results now but I am also terrified of what they might say - I still do not think I have fully accepted what has already taken place. It seems like my brain cannot process the idea of "borderline" (maybe because until the op I didn't know it existed!)
Most days I ignore what is happening - I do not speak about my anxiety to family and friends because I know they want me to remain positive - and most days I can.
The other reason is that I feel guilty when I think about people who are alot worse off than me - who have been given a worse diagnostic.
