Is it really better to have loved and lost..................?

Hi folks! As you know, on a Friday I go to my lovely Hospice Dorothy House. I spend the day with lovely friends, have a spot of lunch and come home feeling uplifted. True enough it is a two-edged sword, these friends of mine are all poorly just like me, so it is inevitable that some will pass on before me. I have often weighed up whether this is in the long term doing me any good. Today at lunch, one of my good friends Lee said she didn’t think she would be coming anymore, she felt that she was struggling with meeting good people and then having to watch as they slowly fade away. I know how she feels of course, I have thought about it many times myself. It is a tough decision to make and I don’t think there is a right or wrong answer. I hope Lee reconsiders and stays with Dorothy House, I think it brings a lot more into our lives than it does without it. I will say this though. My five year journey has brought me into contact with people that I just could not imagine not having in my life! It has renewed friendships, strengthened relationships, forged brand new friendships and brought me much closer to those that I love. Sure it would be great not to have this wretched disease but that’s not the hand I have been dealt. I really believe that my life is richer for knowing the people I have met on my journey, even if it was only for a short while. They have made a profound difference to my life. I like to think that if I feel that way about them then maybe I have put a smile on someone’s face, calmed someone’s nerves or just simply listened to someone who needed to talk. Our close friend Jenny has not been for three weeks, she has been very poorly and is slowly deteriorating before our eyes. I have been keeping in touch with her husband George as to how she is doing, we miss her a lot. Today however, after lunch we had a lovely surprise, George brought Jen in for an hour to see us all. You could see she was tired and it was a real effort but she so wanted to see us all, and boy did we benefit from her presence! So my thought is this, cancer can do a lot of things but it can’t take away anything that matters. I will always be a mum, and one day a grandma, a wife, a cousin, a good friend. A good friend who really needed a friend at this time in their life, just like I did when I found all of you! Wishing you love as always Indie xx