I was diagnosed last week and have done a lot of pacing and a fair amount of melodrama has been performed since then.
Obviously I'm not going to die, yet I tell my friend I want Rammstein to carry my coffin. I wonder if people will buy me presents, and if it would be rude to drop hints.
I wonder if I might faint with fright or throw up; yet I reassure everyone that I feel absolutely fine.
This is going to be a secret journal.
