I've never been good at keeping diaries so please bear with me.
Today, my dad had his consultation for before he begins chemo.
On the way to the hospital, he walked there as I was walking to college, he began throwing up violently the whole way there.
And before bed, at midnight, he began vomitting all over again.
He's 45 and he's just... Got tumours everywhere. Liver, stomach, esophagus and the doctor said he has roughly 6 months left to live if left untreated.
It was just such a big shock that I just... Couldn't believe it was real, you know? I'm crying every night but during the day I feel carefree. But when I hear my dad being sick like that it's just... Heartbreaking.
I love him so much and he's my inspiration and the reason I am who I am, and losing him would just tear me apart. I want to support him, and love him dearly for however long he has left, be it 6 months or years and years on...
I just want him to be okay for my brother and my mother's sake.
I can't believe this is real, I really can't.
FormerMember
Morning....we'll done for starting your blog of your journey with dad.
Keep writing and reading back how you feel ok. You can help your mum and brother by encouraging them to talk too Nx
Hey I've just seen this, I'm new here and can kind of relate to you my dad has just recently had his kidney removed because of cancer, were awaiting results ( next week ) to let us know just what we are dealing with, he's 57 and all I have! My mum passed away when I was little and I have my own family but my dad is my everything I need him I want to be there step by step but this is heart breaking he had an op on Monday and has had so many problems since, I can see in his face just how scared he is!
He's been clotting in his wee and has had bits of fleshy tissue as he passes which is killing him he just wants to come home no one is giving him answers as to why he is passing the tissue, I know he is worried it's the cancer! Our life has fallen apart since July when he was told it was cancer his op was put back and put back which made him worry in that time 3 months just how much had it spread!!
I want him to get through this were at the first hurdle I want my children to have their grandad in their lives for years to come but it's hard to focus on anything when you see just how scared they are xx
