Hey there Gran,
I just wanted to talk to you. It's been over a year since you left and I still feel empty inside. A part of me died with you. I miss you, so much. I have spoken to Granddad quite a lot lately. I know he is sad that you're gone too. He misses you, I am sure of it. My daughter is growing up fast, I am sure you already know. I am sure you visit sometimes. I am proud that she says 'please'. I will make sure, when she is old enough to understand, that she knows about you and all the stories you blessed me with. I love you, to the moon and stars and back.
I wish you were here still but I know you had to go, you have to help other people. I will meet again with you, one day. I am sorry that I never spent more time with you. That I never bothered to ring you or even ask how you were. I always asked everyone else. I am sorry, I was really scared. I hoped if I didn't know too much, especially from you, then it wouldn't be real. But, it is. I live this everyday knowing that I never made the effort to even see you or phone you.
You really are an inspiration to me. You made my childhood amazing and I will think of you every single day I am alive. I will never, ever forget you. You played such a role in our lives, all of us. Well I cannot really speak for some people who shouldn't be named. They aren't family for what they did, but you had your wits about you even until the end.
I hope you do know that I love you, I always loved you and I always will. I cannot ever forget you and everything you did to help me. I threw it back in your face most times but it was because I was selfish, manipulative and a down right child. I needed to grow up and losing you made me grow up, a lot.
You need to know even though I don't talk about you enough with family, I do miss you. I just don't want to hurt people.
I miss you Gran, I love you so much... soo soo much. I will keep saying it over and over again until I know you've heard it.
I hope I make you proud.
I love you, from your little cutie x
