Well, here is something I thought I'd never be writing about. My experiences as a teenage cancer patient. It's all very surreal.
I'm sorry if this a bit off, but I started my radiotherapy 3 days ago and i'm already shattered from it. As well as cramping and bleeding...I don't think thats meant to happen. It worries me alot, I hope it doesn't mean the tumour has returned. You see, so far I have had a complete response to the chemo so i'm now getting maintenance chemo and radiotherapy in hope to prevent it returning. I pray everyday that it won't.
It's strange, I've been so positive, I am going to beat this bitch of a disease. But today, well since the radio, i've been quite down. It might actually been last weeks chemo getting to me. Post-chemo depression. I forgot I get that.
I'm so anoyed, I had an 8 week break from everything there(another reason I'm scared something has returned) while I got an operation to move up my ovaries and small bowel from the radiation field in hope that I wouldn't have to go through the menopause or be affected by loose bowels(Cancer is so sexy...). So my I have a little hair covering my head which is lovely and my eyebrows and eyelashes returned...but, unfortuantly my hair will all go again. However, I forgot what a pain it is having to shave! I secretly treasure it though.
Well, that's all for today. I see my oncologist tomorrow, hopefully the bleeding is nothing to worry about. I'll keep on praying.
