Well, I finished my 25 sessions of radiotherapy today. I also have 2/3 of my brachytherapy out of the way and only 4 more chemo sessions to go! It's been a busy week. I went in on sunday night to the Cancer Centre to get ready for Brachy the next day, then had radio and a MRI (this was completely out of the blue, noone had told me about it. Trying not to think bout results), radio wednesday, brachy thrursday and then today(friday) my last radio. SO i just spent the week in hospital. MY chemo has been delayed cos of Brachy, not sure when its starting again, next thursday maybe?
Now. I have a huge phobia of injections. Not just "im scared and don't like them". I have a phobia. This is not pleasent for a cancer patient and this week i was subjected to 8 needles. I have to say, i have got better, the nurses may still think its a trial getting me to have a jag(they get as nervous as me), but at least I don't throw up/faint anymore. And it only takes a couple of minutes to calm me down for the Subcutaneous ones. Well, maybe more that a couple, but still. For brachy they prefer to give you a local anesthetic in to your SPINE, but nono, not a chance. I got a general and just dealt with the uncomfort and slight pain when i woke up and getting everything pulled out. I may of cried a bit, but I've been throught alot. I felt like a child, they kept tellingme how well i'm doing and how brave I am. They give me cyclemorph on the first brachy in to my thigh. She sprung it on me after 15 minutes of me gurning and having a panic attack, it was quite funny and made me laugh, but bloody sore. I had a sore leg for about 2 days after. But boy does it make you floaty, I now understand while people become drug addicts. Although, i still wasn't brave enough to get it again.
I have another Brachy on Monday, which may I add is my 20th birthday. Fun times all round. But on the plus side, it is my last and then all i have to go through is four more chemos. I can't believe the count down is on its way, I'm scared and excited. What hpapnes next? I don't want to spend the time after my last chemo to my 3 month scan worrying about every slight pain. I'm planning to move out in September with my friend into a wee flat, but is this jumping the gun? I'm only 20 years old, I don't want cancer to make me put my life on hold.
P.S really missing my hair.
P.P.S watching 60minute makeover, they wallpaper is ALWAYS lumpy and noway can paint be dry or things be put together right.
Erin x
