So summary of end of 1st whole week post diagnosis !!!
Positives - whole body CT all clear for extra hidden nasties
- dont need to stop beloved HRT as cancer is not hormone related/responsive
-changed to younger female breast surgeon as found original chap too patriarchal
- have amazing support from friend, family and HCP colleagues
- ovaries have been given all clear by gynaecology
- have achieved all necessary imaging (i 
)
- USS for axillary spread looks good
- getting much better at talking to people about it - less crying
- have not yet become full blown alcoholic 
- appear to have impressed upon medical team that i must have information to enable some sense of control
- worked a few hours with support of amazing colleagues
Negatives - still no clear treatment plan (nobody's fault)
- BRACA still outstanding
- outstanding histology on 2nd slightly suspicious area of same breast
- still cant sleep
- emotions very very labile
Overall, could be worse I guess 
Cheers for the weekend xx
