lost my 39yr daughter, now its got me too

I’m so sorry to read your pain and to have to go through your own troubles as well. Cancer is cruel and thoughtless. I hope you have news that everything is better than you think. It’s hard to always say “i hope it’s all good” as none of us would be here. Stay safe and strong and if you need to bend an ear just message. There is also numbers to call here for support

tuesday i noticed a further growth starting, its on the side of my head, my gp called and basically said i have colon cancer, i get the definitive diagnosis this thursday or friday, to say im dreading it is a under statement, but thats because im feeling pessimistive,  i know the outlook isnt good, im already discussing my death with my youngest, but thats because she needs to be prepared, at least this way if the news is better, she and i will both feel so much better

so today i got the results of my CT scan, its been determined i have lung cancer, i will find out after the lung specialists devise a care plan on Wednesday what is going to happen, as i have other tumours as well im being refered to another team too, i wish it was better news, but in a way im more at peace now i know, it was the unknown that was scaring me

Now at wk 6, im still not receivig treatment as they have now decided i have cancer of unknown origin.(CUPS) When will they start trying to help me? im feeling ignored, lost, alone, very scared,  How much longer do i need to be kept without treatment? surely they could be doing tests to attempt to find origin