Hi Everyone - I know that I am not suffering from the dreaded "C" however I think that partners, wives, husbands, boyfriends, girlfriends, whatever, suffer also. John has just had his fifth bout of chemo and is being very sick, despite strong anti-emetics. I feel absolutely helpless and useless - does anyone out there feel the same? Sometimes feel like stabbing myself in the eye to relieve inner tension as it is SO HARD to watch loved ones suffering. Anyone out there feel the same??!!!! Lol xx
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Thank you for this - your words have comforted me because I know deep down that I am doing all I can, despite feeling so useless. John is having a few days break from his last chemo cycle as he has been very sick and has no appetite. He is so damn strong though, and is determined that he will beat this disease. The odds are stacked against him but he is a fighter, so strong and stubborn. Is determined that he will not go in to hospital again as he feels worse when he is in there.
Am so sorry to hear about your situation - cancer totally sucks, doesn't it? Am so familiar with Niagara Falls - you cannot fall to pieces in front of Konnie - as much as you would like to - but it is so hard to see them suffering and have to pretend that you feel ok. i have cried several rivers and still have loads left. I think that we all should find a remote field somewhere and scream and cry to get it all out as the stress of it all is unbearable. Think we must be keeping tissue manufacturers in business. Stay strong and my love to you both - I just wonder what did we do to deserve the pain that our loved ones and us are going through? Lol Jo xxxxxxx
Konnie passed away on the 12th, I hope your husband is doing ok. She was home for exactly a month before she passed. My 2 sister-in-laws were by her side when she took her last breath at home here. It has been a very hard week. I am doing as good as I can as I hope you are too. I hope you have a good support network behind you, it really helped me. Although I tend to like to be by myself to greive, it was nice to know I had so many people there for me if I did need them. If you don't have anyone feel free to vent here I will check more often now. Take care of yourself. Jesse
