Just thought I would write an update as I have been absent from the site for a while.
Well Christmas was not as bad as I thought in some respects. That said, the B&B was shocking and totally unsafe so I checked straight out again. I was so poorly with awful sickness that I went to stay at Parents house. Think they were shocked to see how ill I was after not visiting or having bothered to make much contact since I became ill. I think it did them good to see me like that really. That said they still refused to discuss anything to do with my illness or how I feel or indeed what I have been going through.....
It was good to see some of the Family but I was horrified at the atmosphere and tension between my family. They are so caught up in a bitter fued and at war with each other and are obviously totally oblivious to the impact their behaviour has on others. Just can't believe they feel it was acceptable to have me stuck in the middle of that hell, but as they have no insight whatsoever I shall take the view that it was therefore unintentional!
I have heard so many people say that this year has been an awful one and they will be glad to see it gone. I find New Year quite upsetting and seem to focus on the bad that has happened and of course I will be ever nearer to finding out what is coming next treatment wise....
Am having lots of strong and strange emotions but am becoming so aware that I do a good job of looking after myself and it is indeed good to be as self sufficient as I am.
The New Year will bring a new baby into the family, (due last week) my Sisters wedding which I am really looking forward to and the Olympics, woo hoo) I am generally feeling positive and quite strong. I will try to nuture myself and take good care of myself and make a real go of my Career.
Best wishes and love to all who are on the site for whatever reason. Lets look after one and other.
