got more support on here than from my own family!!

hello everybody! sorry i haven't been on here for a while i decided to run away for a little while to new zealand! was definately what the doctor ordered! just come back from visiting my sister who unfortunately lost her mum in december (half sister) and i thought we could huddle together and help each other heal considering we both lost our mums and best friends...but no. in true selfsih older sister style she continuously put my mother down (she has issues as my father remarried my mum and i don't think she ever got over it) then carried on to tell me how upset she is that her mum will never see her grandchildren grow up now excuse me, but my mum is never gonna see her grandchildren!!! i also don't understand how it is my fault that i lived at home when mum was ill so i saw her all the time i was also told that i should think myself lucky that no step parents were involved, now can i just point out that my sister is 36! therefore had 13 years more with her mum, got to have her at her wedding and got to meet her 2 grandchildren. now i feel for my sister i really do but does she really need to lash out at me?? i know it is part of the grieving process but i have my limits and i would have expected my sister to be a bit more sensitive considering i know what shes going through. instead i get lies told to me about how my mum broke up her parents marriage and about how she didnt like my mum. i am extremely proud of myself for not hitting her but feel i can no longer class her as a sister as she has now gone too far which is a shame as i am finally getting my life back on track. for all of those who have been with me from the start i am now looking for a job, have a loving partner who is extremely understanding and treats me like a princess hehe. it has passed the year mark now which as everyone has told me is the hardest anniversary i have passed it now and only feel myself growing stronger as i know my mum would want me to. i would also like to thank everyone here for their support at all times of the day and i think of you all often even if i don't show my face that much! anyway sorry for the rant just needed to get that off! love to you all helen xx