I am just having a little reminisce this morning as six months ago today my mum spent her last proper happy day with us before she became very sleepy and disorientated. Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could just have one day to re-live every now and again? I would definitely choose that day.
I have had a tough week this week - my youngest son was 19 on Monday and both of my boys are working away on holiday jobs this summer, so my separation has been hard following on from losing my beloved mum. I just find myself missing her so very much at the moment - I cried in Sainsburys yesterday doing my food shopping (what a wally I must have looked, wearing my smart suit, walking around sobbing...) Of course I want my boys to live their young lives to the full - blimey, Lord knows there'll be enough time spent worrying about money and all of that stuff for them later on!
When I read back over all the wonderful comments some of you lot made around that time six months ago when I had my mum here for her last few days, about how I was making 'special memories' and that it was cherished time, you were all so flippin' right. I look back to 6th December with such fondness - pain too - but only cos I wished I could have held her more, kissed her more, sang to her more - although I know I spent that whole time with her attending to her needs and making her feel safe, warm, loved and secure and that gives my soul a little bit of warmth.
Take care of yourselves xxx
Hannah
It will take time to grieve and yes, waves of grief will come back every now and again to knock us off our feet when we least expect. Feed off your good memories and the gaps between the waves of grief will widen until the time when memories will only bring smiles not tears.
oh bless you hannah .....youve fetched tears to my eyes!
i remember when my dad died (13yrs ago now ....i cant belieeeeeve its so long ago!)
he died in the november .... i remember being in WHS in the december choosing cards for family
my husband picked up a mum n dad card ....i picked a mum card ... iwas in floods of tears and couldnt stop it was awful (crikey mick -im nearly cryin just thinkin of it ....i cant see the keys and i dont touch type...ooops!)
you are right the day that i would want over again is the saturday before my dad died it was such a wonderfull day from start to finish people we hadnt seen in years turned up out of the blue all his children ,grandchildren & great grandchildren came at different times of the day & in the evening while mum had a much deserved sleep [we had been awake for three days because he had bad nights] we had a lovely chat about our hopes & dreams writting this now is making me fill up but in a nice way even though he passed away the day after i would relive that day over & over again just to see his gummy smile one more time . your mum sounds like she was a lovely person ,memories are the best legacy to leave your children take care love n hugs theresa xxx
